Fear

Does this ever happen with you? Are you afraid of your own feelings? Do they scare you?
Are you afraid?

Sometimes I am afraid to write my own diary,

to let my own feelings out,

to subconsciously being aware of what I'd been trying to ignore.

I don't know how to not be afraid of my own feelings.

I am afraid to face my feelings, I am afraid to face deep emotions that would ruin me and make me fall into pieces if I face them at all.
Ignoring them feels safe, when you don't face them and feel safe that they are tucked away somewhere.

I feel safe right now. But I don't know for how long.