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Tuesday, January 10, 2012

suppressed emotions

So i was talking to a close friend and i told her about everything that happened at home and i love how she made everything better for me.. by not just listening but by providing solutions to my problems.
But what really striked me in the end was.. when i said "stay close.. such closeness with a friend is precious.. especially in this day and age when friends' fall apart."
She said she would try but change is the law of the world and that we don't know how circumstances turn out to be in the future.
Her words moved me..
I told her.. "don't worry about the circumstances.. as long as you don't change, thats' all that matters.."
because the truth is friends' change. I have experienced it and it has hurt me every time to see that.
It broke me into pieces.
How easy is this change?

So the truth is that if two people love each other, no matter what the circumstances.. they would talk to each other.. they would make time no matter what.
But in my case, what really happened was..
i guess.. the reason why we ended up falling apart was because of lack of communication, unexpressed, suppressed feelings..
like if they were mad at me for something.. they chose not to tell me.. everything was kept inside which made it harder.
They never complained, never got angry. They were silent. I understood their silence but i want my friends' to express..
I want them to tell me when they're mad at me, if i did something they didn't like.. i want them to tell me instead of keeping it all inside.. Thats what makes it worse actually!
I've learnt to show my anger much better than i used to.
Trust me, suppressed feelings are no good. They only spoil relationships. And sometimes the ego becomes too big to spoil a beautiful friendship..
I am ready to kill that ego, anytime.

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